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How do you feel about making videos/vlogs etc?

It's a stupid entry, I know, but I need to know how do you feel when you make them? I mean, I'm kind of shy n stuff and I want to do videos so badly but I don't actually feel comfortable watching myself in a video or whatever. My confidence level isn't low a lot and i dont have a big ego either but i think i'm afraid that I will be judged and I would only see the bad comments. What do you think?

I know some of you would go, [if somebody even comments lol] "I don't think making videos is for you" butttt i want to do videos and sometimes i say, people who get called "fag/homo/gay" or any other crap, they still do videos even people who upload pointless videos still keep on doing videos. That's kind of a """motivation"""" but mehhhhh i don't know.

Any advice?

~iz back.

yush :D new comp so yer oley!

It's been a while..

Last time i got online was like a couple of months ago. i abandoned this site, where i was so crazy about it before. all the scene queens posting their latest photos, music news updated so quickly, awesome people to talk to.. ehh D: i missed this place. Yesterday me n my bff were bringing back old memories, and i guess buzznet does make A LITTLE part of a memory cause when i was obsessed on buzznet i was obsessed on BMTH. now, i'm obsessed on nothing. i still listen to music but not like before. i guess, with school work and o'levels [gsce's] coming ive been more focusing on school.. even though i should focus even more but yer. i found old peoms that i wrote and i missed writing, so yeah, ima start writing again.. and i know nobody cares all about this but i felt like saying it ^_^. so yesterday i made a pact to myself, to start doing some things. dont eat way too much candy, eat more healthy, start writing again, do good in school, listen to more fftl, and start camwhoring again. i have a lot to do but i think i can manage to do it. yupp, if i say i can, i will :D. <- lame line but whatevs, you know what i mean.

A couple of songs you should listen to.

The Used - Sick Hearts

The Ting Tings - Be The One

The Pigeon Detectives - This Is An Emergency

Klaxons - Magick

Klaxons - Two Recievers

The Horrors - Gloves

The Horrors - Count In Fives

Mystery Jets - Half In Love with Elizabeth

Kids In Glass Houses - Saturday

One Night Only - Nintendo

These are more indie-ish [except for the used] so no RAWRiness in em tho i do suggest that you should check em out. They're quite brilliant and i wanted to share my "At the moment fav songs" with you =]

3OH!3

Is one AWESOME band! I discovered them this morning on www.purevolume.com and DAYUM! they're like whoa! srsly. A few songs i'm in love with atm and i suggest you should give them a listen are "Don't trust me", "PunkBitch" and "I'm Not Your Boyfriend Baby".

Random Word.

If you ever come across this title and you happen to read this, comment it. Just say only one random word that pops in your head at the moment n post it. It can be anything.

It's a kind of a brain storming for me to have ideas for a new story.

Thanks.

[16th of july] HPY BDAY TO MEEEE =D

it's 12.25pm/am or whatever here and its technically the 16th of julyyy soooo im fiftteeeeennnnnnnnnnnn wooo haha 8D

{curtis} SUICIDE [bmth] SEASON {ward} part 1

i'd thought i should post this story on here too :) and this part may be a tad boring since it's not where the actual story begins..

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"Ronald, I'm getting really worried now." his wife said putting her cup of tea down on the coffee table.

"So am I dear, but you know what the doctor said aye? He can't do anything about it unless we send him to... you know." he said looking down.

"Oh Ronald but I don't want to send our OWN son to the St.Luke's Hospital. He won't survive there all alone."

"But he is getting more looney, than ever before."

"How dare you call our son LOONEY!"

"Oh come on Anita, if it wasn't true, I wouldn't have said it in the first place."

"God... is this the only way?"

"The only way to heal Curtis, dear."

"Well... should I call him to come downstairs so we could tell him the not so good news?"

"No! It most definately won't be safe. He might snap and start smashing and breaking all of this stuff we have in this living room. I'll just go up and tell him the news myself." he said getting up and brushed off some buiscuit crumbles off his lap.

"Just be careful with him." she said as she put her head in her hands and sighed loudly.

He walked up the stairs one by one, afraid to go to Curtis' room. He finally found himself in front of his son's bedroom door, his left hand was about to knock but he hesitated and took a deep breath. His heart started to pound, he loved his son but he got scared shitless when his son would go wild and crazy.

He took a deep breath again, "I must do it now." he said to himself and he finally knocked on the door.

"Who is it?" Curtis' voice was barely audiable for his father to hear.

"It's me, dad."

"Oh do come in."

He did as his son said and saw him on his bed surrounded with paper balls and had a fork in his hand.

"Um.. Curtis.. what in the world are you doing?"

"Poking these paper balls with this fork made out of metal." he said smiling like a little school boy while lifting up his fork to show to his father.

At that age he should be downloading porn not poking stuff with forks, Ronald thought to himself.

"So what do you want daddy?" he said still with that wide smile on his face.

Go read my first chapter of my Curtis Ward story ^.^

http://www.quizilla.com/stories/7418985/curtis-suicide-bmth-season-ward

ANYONE WHO HAS A QUIZILLA ACCOUNT PLS I NEED HELP !!!

D'you know from where i make new folders to put chapters in?

thankx